I have so enjoyed being outside this summer, although sometimes I have felt very frustrated. I’m still trying to get used to being so limited in what I am supposed to do… and to not being able to do so many of the things I always have done. My family are always watching me and jumping in to “help me,” and although I am grateful that they are looking out for me… it hurts sometimes that they have to. It doesn’t fit the picture I have always had of myself.
Common primrose (Primula vulgaris)
Some days are more difficult than others… and this has been a week of difficult days. It helps to keep seeing the big picture instead of focusing on today’s pain. It also helps when I think about how much more I can do this year than I was able to do last year, and how… despite the injuries… I AM able to walk and do so many things that for months everyone thought I would never be able to do again.
It’s a definite cause and effect that I am a different person now. I know what my priorities are and what is important to me. I absolutely love the life we have made for ourselves, and I’m happier than I have ever been. I notice things that I used to overlook… I appreciate simple things I never used to think about… and most of all, I find it almost impossible to take anyone or anything for granted, because I have experienced firsthand how quickly everything can change.
I won’t go so far as to say I am glad I suffered the back injury… but I AM so very grateful for the “now” that has been given to me.
I know how blessed I am.